Why???

Why can't I just have an idea? Every time I'm trying to work, to come up with something for my project, it all sucks??
I used to have good ideas, I used to be creative but now... I'm working in a office building, designing the building with two other colleagues. This time my part is thinking about the exterior, the facade so to speak. I just can't have an idea for it, it's always the same one. Truth been told I haven't tried that hard, I get bored.
But that shouldn't happen!! I'm doing something I love (supposedly). I should be full of ideas but I'm not and I hate it.

Changing a bit...
Today I was talking with a friend and she was telling about a boy she liked and stuff like that. All my friends had or have someone in their lives, I haven't...
I don't know why or maybe I just can't admit it but I've never dated or anything like that. I've never been in love.
I can't recall my first kiss, I'm not sure I had one.
Guess I'm just too shy...
Sometimes, now more than before, I find myself wishing to have someone by my side, in the bus home, in the subway, in class breaks...someone that loved me as I am.
And because I'm a romantic, I would like it to be secret, my friends wouldn't know at first. It would be our secret.
I guess that's my problem too, I'm waiting for prince charming,I'm waiting for that look across the room, a bump in the street, a casual and innocent meeting that becomes much more.

Like I said, I don't let people in that easy...

Let's stop here, it's better for now